Good news and nerves

The title of this post pretty much sums up my life this week.

Good news from the hospital about a family relative (which I wont be going into detail on here). Actually it is pretty much brilliant news.

Good news from my Niece and Nephew on their GCSE results meaning both will be able to go to college and do the course they want.

The results were – Nephew – 4 A’s, 5 B’s and 1 C Niece 5 B’s and 5 C’s

They both get there smarts from me, that’s for sure.

Nerves about a meeting I have tomorrow. 11AM. Please pray that I don’t cock-up tomorrow.

Hopefully after my meeting, there will be more good news to share with you all.

Oh and we’ve been married 11 months.

Seeing into the future

I’m coming to see you tomorrow.

The person who reminds me so much of him.

I look at you and it is just him but 40 years older.

The same look, hair pattern and jaw line.

The same sitting stance; hands between your knees as if to contain them when you talk about something funny.

The same eye roll at something your wife does.

Your stubbornness.

I look at your wife and see myself.

A worried warrior, protecting you but scared for what might happen.

Too many times this week I’ve put myself in her position.

What would I do if that was me; if that was my husband.

Would I cry?

Would I get angry?

Would I just get on with it?

And I look at you and see him. My husband.

And I did cry.

I did get angry.

And now I am getting on with it.

If he is half the man you are now, even in your hour of need, I know I would’ve done good.

I’m coming to see you tomorrow.

And I can hardly wait.

Theme Tune Thursday

So shoot me for being positive today.

I heard this song on my commute into work this morning and it never fails to make me feel more positive about things. Lord knows we need to have some nice moments.

And now, I want you to get that too.

Stop what you’re doing, turn the TV down and dance your heart out to the song below.

Guaranteed instant happy. Then you can go back to being glum.

Dog days are over – Florence and the Machine

Hurdles

Hard days come and go. If your lucky you get to forget some of the hard days.

Others are meant to stay in your mind. Stay and remind you that it’s not always that bad.

Yesterday was one of those tough days. For reasons I can’t go into here, yesterday, was a tough hurdle. The first hurdle in our marriage of 11 months.

Nothing physically happened yesterday for anyone to think that we had a hurdle we had to cross. If you came across my Husband and I yesterday, you would think we were walking around town, just like any other couple that day.

Except we were waiting. Waiting for news of a surgery. Waiting to see if we could move on to the next stage of recovery. Waiting…for anything.

8 hours later and we were told everything had gone well.

Ventilator is a scary word.

One hurdle jumped together, let’s do the next one.

Inspiration

originally published on firstimehitched.blogspot.com – August 2010

So I’m sitting at home, in my comfy chair; laptop in front of me on terrace table (what, don’t judge me), and all day long I have ideas on what to write about. Maybe have a little quote that I might use. A whole dialogue written out in my mind. But obviously this all happens at work, where I can’t write my blog and therefore I have to condense my thoughts until its time to go home. Only for me to get home and sit in a perfect position and come up with NOTHING. Absolutely nothing.

I have posts in my head that will only seem relevant once a certain date comes around (September will be an awesome month) and I have topics I want to broach but more thought needs to go into it first.

I am an avid reader of so many blogs and the writing is so original and (this is going to be cheesy) inspirational, that it makes me want to be a better writer. That being said, I am in no way a writer, but I do LOVE writing. I don’t want to let the blogging world or readers of this blog (hello? Hello? is there anyone there?) down with my inane observations or banter.

I am new to this and I am finding my feet. I want to  will talk about what it is like to be married when you haven’t before and all the new things that happen and things that change.

Bear with me, it WILL get good.

Happy Times

Originally published on firstimehitched.blogspot.com – August 2010

After my moment yesterday, I decided to list the good things that are coming up in my life.

(Yes, I am a lists type of person)

1. Nieces’ Birthday BBQ, this coming weekend, they are having a joint party

2. Looooong weekend 13th-17th August

3. Finally meeting up with my best friend, Suzan

4. Finally seeing my Godson, Adam

5. Better off Ted being on FX (Does the humour remind anyone else of Dead Like me?)

6. Breaking Bad Season 2 arriving via Love Film.

7. Blip.fm

8. Hubs not doing night shifts for at least two weeks after tonight

9. My Glamour magazine subscription, which just keeps arriving even though I could’ve sworn it run out in May (Please don’t shop me in to Conde Nast)

10. Wedding album hopefully arriving.any.day.now. SQUEEEE!

So yea, it’s getting good.